The Lifestyle Switch
I used to not envy the life I live now. One with routine and stability. It always seemed so boring and mundane, but here I am. And I’ve never been as happy with myself.
It’s funny how our priorities change as we get older, especially in our twenties.
A few years ago, I was striving for adventure and excitement. I lived for spontaneity.
Not to say I still don’t crave those things, but I guess you could say I’ve dialed it back.
I truly love the person I am with this balanced life. I enjoy my job. I’m exploring new hobbies. I’m taking care of myself.
It’s not as thrilling, but I guess you have to decide which works best for you. Or life decides for you.
I’m so happy I lived a life of exploration the past six years. I wouldn’t be who I am now. But there was so much of me that was missing. I felt lost most of the time and had extreme highs and lows.
Those missing parts of me are now whole. It’s really interesting actually.
You would think that I’d “found” myself through all of my adventures, but I always left feeling a little down. “Why can’t life always feel this good?”
When I wasn’t doing something new or crazy, I was deep in thought, asking myself why I couldn’t ever feel completely happy. I would be down BAD after a trip or when I came home from school for the summer. I was a roller coaster of emotions. It was a cycle of struggle.
Now that I’ve slowed down, I can reminisce without dwelling on the past. I can sit with my thoughts! It’s really nice haha.
I’m creating a beautiful life for myself but yes, it looks quite different than recent years. Adjusting is difficult but I don’t regret anything. I’m happy to be where I am now. And I’m proud of where I’ve been.
I think it’s nice to realize that we all go through this to some extent. When priorities shift or when things are changing, it’s normal to feel lost and confused. You’re not the only one.
Remember: we are allowed to change. You don’t have to fit the version of yourself that others expect you to be. It would be a shame if we stayed the same, honestly.
We’re all learning as we go, so give yourself grace, and enjoy the process. You only get one life - make it interesting.
Love this one❤️